Forget everything you think you know about me.

2010-07-28T06:34:00.000-07:00

i would miss you.

2010-04-09T06:34:00.000-07:00

why do you keep screaming at the top of your head?

i used to think that silence was golden

2010-01-14T05:31:00.001-08:00

it hurts me to see her hurting you like this,
i really wish we had never drifted so far apart.

life is always hard for the belle of the boulevard

i admire you.
whilst i continued to mess up and drink myself silly you stopped and changed as a person. you grew up. sometimes i resent the person you became because a new life came with that person and i didnt fit, but then i see that not everything is about me. before you were living the same lifestyle as me, maybe even worse, and you cleaned up. i wish i had changed when i had the oppertunity and not let everything slip away like it did. you write about drinking and smoking and feeling relief through it but believe me it only kills a person inside. fight the addiction.
but like i said..

.. i left my head and my heart on the dancefloor.

i love you but i chose disco, ox.
why?

2009-12-21T05:49:00.000-08:00

i used to laugh it off,
i used to look the other way,
i used to save them troubles for another day.
i kept my fingers crossed,
i used to never take the blame,
i'd pull a sunshine story in the pouring rain,
the more i have to change i just stay the same.

you dont know what you got till your missing it alot,
~~i had to go throw it away,~~
i was wrong from the start, from the bottom of my heart
i apologise.

can you keep a secret?

2009-11-18T05:18:00.000-08:00

i love all my friends so much!

..except you :)

2009-11-16T03:28:00.000-08:00

so just pull the trigger,

i see who my true friends are now and i will never take them for granted like she did, i love you.

2009-10-21T03:05:00.000-07:00

you have stolen my heart,

♥

2009-10-18T23:13:00.000-07:00

You’re everything I thought you never were
And nothing like I thought you could’ve been
But still you live inside of me
So tell me how is that?
You’re the only one I wish I could forget
The only one I’d love to not forgive
And though you break my heart, you’re the only one
And though there are times when I hate you
Cause I can’t erase the times that you hurt me
And put tears on my face
And even now while I hate you, it pains me to say
I know I’ll be there at the end of the day.

i love you, but..

2009-10-15T05:13:00.000-07:00

"You may not be her first, her last, or her only.
She loved before, she may love again.
But if she loves you now, what else matters?
Shes not perfect, you arent either,
And the two of you may never be perfect together
But if she can make you laugh, cause you to think twice,
And admit to being human and making mistakes,
Hold onto her and give her the most you can.
She may not be thinking of you every second of the day,
But she will give you a part of her that she knows you can break.
So dont hurt her, dont change her, dont analyze
And dont expect more than she can give.
Smile when she makes you happy,
Let her know when she makes you mad,
And miss her when shes not there."

"One good thing about music, when it hits you, you feel no pain."

"Open your eyes, look within.
Are you satisfied with the life you're living?"

- bob marley ♥

2009-10-07T05:57:00.000-07:00

but what is love without loss?

2009-10-07T05:50:00.001-07:00

i love my boyfriend so fucking much.

teehee!

i dont know how i could live without you,
but you changed everything i knew,
as time went on all the bad feelings were gone,
they say when your in love, you know.

and i want you to know, you couldnt have loved me better.

i adore you.

2009-10-03T23:32:00.001-07:00

have fun without me.

2009-09-28T06:08:00.000-07:00

he is ruining me.
i am ruining myself.

2009-09-28T05:54:00.000-07:00

i cant really say anything more or anything less. apparently actions speak louder than words, and my actions arent even near enough.

im sorry if you feel replaced.
im sorry i drink.
im sorry we drifted apart.
im sorry you feel that way.
im sorry i couldnt change.
im sorry you havent been able to have your "good" night.
im sorry you gave up on me.
im sorry a million times over..

but do you know what im most sorry about?

im sorry i had to replace you, because you left me behind.

remember that.

please dont let this friendship stay a memory,

can you keep a secret?

2009-09-27T07:57:00.000-07:00

i really do did miss you,
but now i realize we can never be friends
like we used too be and we can never
really be as close as we used too.

or can we?

even if you dont see it, i do.

can you keep a secret?

2009-09-24T06:45:00.000-07:00

even if the sky is falling down.

please baby stop, no more drugs.

i'm fighting for this boy,
on a battlefield of love,
don't it look like baby cupid sendin arrows from above,
don't you ever leave the side of me,
indefinitely, not probably,
and honestly i'm down like the economy.

i wish you could see how much you mean to me.

2009-09-22T22:26:00.000-07:00

if i lay here, would you lie with me and just forget the world?

all that i ever was, was here in your perfect eyes
they're all i can see.

i dont quite know, how to say, how i feel.

please dont leave me.

2009-09-06T04:49:00.000-07:00

I've been so evil with my constant invasions
But you made it so easy for me
You always rise to the occasion
I'll always pull you up on every stupid thing that you say
But I found it so entertaining
Messing around with your head
All the pain I've caused you
The constant flow of all the tears
Believe me when I say that I cannot apologise enough
When all you ever wanted from me was a token of my love
And if it's not too late
Could you please find it deep within your heart
To try and go back go back to the start
This is not just a song
I intend to put these words into action
I hope that it sums up the way that I feel to your satisfaction.

me and you.

can you keep a secret?

2009-09-05T06:21:00.000-07:00

"lauren, look at what your doing to yourself. stop."
you think i dont see it too..

I came to party and you came to party
So why don't we party together!

enough is enough.

can you keep a secret?

2009-09-03T08:54:00.000-07:00

it scares me to think..

i love you so fucking much.

2009-09-01T09:11:00.001-07:00

the truth hurts, so we lie.

2009-08-31T03:33:00.000-07:00

if you really knew what i was going through it would be a whole different story.

i dont know what to do anymore..

if i could give you the world it wouldnt even come close,
but can i do this anymore?

my dreams are bursting at the seams.

all alone again lauren?
no yes.

can you keep a secret?

2009-08-20T22:10:00.000-07:00

i can only blame myself.

2009-08-19T08:08:00.000-07:00

Who would have ever knew
That we would ever be more than friends
We're real worldwide, breakin all the rules
She like a song played again and again

See you been all around the globe
Not once did you leave my mind
We talk on the phone, from night til the morn
Girl you really change my life
Doin things I never do
I'm in the kitchin cookin things she likes

We're real worldwide, breakin all the rules
Someday I wanna make you my wife
That girl, like somethin off a poster
That girl, is a dime they say
That girl, is the gun to my holster
She's runnin through my mind all day

I can be your melody
A girl that could write you a symphony
The one that could fill your fantasies
So come baby girl let's sing with me.

i love you so much.

2009-08-12T08:33:00.000-07:00

how do i say to you
that your my one and only
never leave me lonely
put your body on me
and hold me close to you yeah?
your chain
your bling it don't mean shit to me
just keep yo money in yo pocket
everything up in here i own it
no fake I.D
just keep it real with me
you know you want me.

i bet you think this song is about you, ox.

2009-08-09T12:04:00.000-07:00

"why do people drink?"
"to forget"
"forget what?"
"everything."

When you cant turn back and you just cant stop.

i bet you think this song is about you, ox.

2009-07-29T05:43:00.000-07:00

And you've got your share of secrets

And I'm tired of being last to know
And now you're asking me to listen
'Cause it's worked each time before.

i bet you think this song is about you, ox.

2009-07-21T09:28:00.000-07:00

choking on your alibis?

but its just the price i pay
destiny is calling me
open up my eager eyes
cause im mister ~~bright~~side.

i bet you think this song is about you, ox.

2009-07-18T21:47:00.000-07:00

I bet shes that kinda girl thats a tease
The kinda girl that raves and gets drunk for free
Dat kinda girl that drinks your drinks and then leave,
but shes dealing with a bad boy.

story of my life, ox.

2009-06-23T07:39:00.000-07:00

why you acting silly boy?

i tried so hard,

cant seem to get away from misery.

whats going on?

i hate this part right here,

i just can't take your tears.

~~you said it first.~~

these nights, i fall asleep

wondering where you are,

it feels like we're falling apart

and its only breaking my heart.

i never thought i'd be in love like this,

when i look at you my mind goes on a trip.

coz' boy you came around and you knocked me down.

i bet you think this song is about you, ox.

2009-06-04T07:41:00.000-07:00

how'd you like the way regret tastes?
it should have been me.

SILLY BOY.

i bet you think this song is about you, ox.

2009-06-03T05:50:00.000-07:00

the partys ~~just~~ begun.

2009-05-21T04:48:00.000-07:00

im so alone

here on my own

and i am waiting for you to come

i want to be a part of you

think of all the things we could do

and everyday your in my head

i want to have you in my bed

you are the one

your in my eyes

all i ever wanted in my life.

i know that i love you, oh baby why dont you see?

i bet you think this song is about you, ox.

2009-05-20T00:34:00.000-07:00

im so so tired of all of this.

im drunk and so is everyone else,

in this devil town,

and i know what your thinking

but it wont stop this drinking

its the least i can do

'cos this life is anything but certain

when they close the final curtain

you'll get a glimpse of

the truth.

its not "fun" anymore.

i bet you think this song is about you, ox.

2009-04-30T19:57:00.000-07:00

take the white pill, you'll feel alright.

2009-04-12T06:05:00.000-07:00

Been a long time since I
Did something good for myself
But why should I be put through hell?
He's doing what he wanna do I finally found somebody else
Who really wants to make me feel
Things that I've been missing so long
And his love always passed the test
It's a shame I had to look somewhere else
When I'm gone and I need a man
I just hope that he understands
Forgive me baby,

i bet you think this song is about you, ox.

2009-03-31T05:52:00.000-07:00

take me out tonight.

2009-03-24T03:34:00.000-07:00

and speaking of hell it dont compare to the heat that im feeling,
i love you to much, it shows,
all my emotions go out of control,
good for you. bad for me.
when i can hardly see, from the tears that flow.

"i lost myself in us."

truth is, all these songs are about you, ox.

2009-03-19T06:44:00.000-07:00

Black dress, with the tights underneath,

I've got the breath of the last cigarette on my teeth,

And she's an actress, but she ain't got no need,

She's got money from parents in a trust fund back east.

Bruises cover your arms,

Shaking in the fingers with the bottle in your palm,

And the best is, no one knows who you are,

Just another girl alone at the bar?

i bet you think this song is about you, ox.

2009-03-14T05:23:00.000-07:00

oh baby baby.

2009-03-12T01:21:00.000-07:00

Oh the wind whistles down

The cold dark street tonight

And the people they were dancing to the music vibe

And the boys chase the girls with the curls in their hair

While the shy tormented youth sit way over there

And the songs they get louder

Each one better than before

And you're singing the songs

Thinking this is the life

And you wake up in the morning and your head feels twice the size

Where you gonna go?

Where you gonna sleep tonight?

Where you gonna sleep tonight?

i bet you think this song is about you, ox.

2009-03-04T04:07:00.000-08:00

im so in agony, look at the state of me.

i bet you think this song is about you, ox.

2009-02-19T03:02:00.000-08:00

Your the one that i want.
The one that i need.
The one that i got to have just to succeed.
When i first saw you i knew it was real.
Im sorry about the pain i made you feel.
That wasnt me, let me show you the way.
I look for the sun but its raining today.
I remember when you first looked in my eyes.
It was like i was there, heaven in the skies.

i bet you think this song is about you, ox.

2009-02-18T01:54:00.000-08:00

Dont blink, they wont even miss you at all

And dont think that i'll always be gone

You know i've got you like a puppet in the palm of my hand.

i bet you think this song is about you, ox.

2008-12-30T08:57:00.000-08:00

Hey there sugar baby

Saw you twice at the pop show

You taste just like glitter mixed with rock and roll

I like you a lot lot

Think you're really hot hot

I know you think you're special

When we dance real crazy

Glam-aphonic, electronic, disco baby

I like you a lot lot

All we want is hot hot.

i bet you think this song is about you, ox.

2008-12-26T02:05:00.000-08:00

every line is about who i dont want to write about anymore.

2008-12-11T07:49:00.000-08:00

I wanaa hold him like they do in Texas Plays.
Fold him, let him hit me raise it baby stay with me, i love it.
Luck and intuition plays the cards with spades to start.
And after he's been hooked, I'll play the one thats on his heart.

Can't read my poker face?
~~Shes~~ I got to love nobody.

i loved you so much.

you found me, ox.

2008-12-10T05:57:00.000-08:00

i still hear your voice, when you sleep next to me.
i still feel your touch in my dreams.
forgive me my weakness, ~~but i dont know why.~~
without you its hard to survive.

because everytime we touch i get this feeling.
and everytime we kiss i swear i can fly.
cant feel my heart beat fast?
i want this to last, need you by my side.

because everytime we touch i feel the static.
and everytime we kiss i reach for the sky.
cant you feel my heart beat so?
i cant let you go, want you in my life.

--------------------------------------♥-----------------------------------------

if the sun shuts down, and decided not to shine no more.
i would still have you, baby.

because i know if im falling, you wont let me hit the ground.
if the boat is sinking, i know you wont let me drown.
no matter what anyone could say, this is the only place for me.
and no one could ever take that away.

because its us against the world.

--------------------------------------♥-----------------------------------------

im tryna take you where my ~~heart~~ is, babe.
not like them other journies, so far from ordinary.
i can lure you, im so clever with.
theres really no place to run, so you can just forget.
i set a trap, and ohh look how i caught you in it.

im holding you captive?

2008-12-04T03:44:00.000-08:00

GO QUEEN!

2008-12-03T07:12:00.000-08:00

Sometimes tears say all there is to say.

Sometimes your first scars wont ever fade away.

Trying to break my heart? Well its broke.

Trying hang me high? Well im choked.

Trying to rain on me? Well im soaked.

2008-11-23T05:48:00.000-08:00

i loose.
wheres the finish line?
im not loving you, the way i wanted to.

long time no blog.
hello.

2008-11-10T04:19:00.000-08:00

His eyes are locked on her

Her eyes are fixed elsewhere

He's confident, but he's not aware

She doesn't care

Their only connection is the silence they both grasp

He's lost control

But she's not aware, of his stare

Everything seems to intimidate him, With the strobe lights flashing, her body's jolting

But cracking, as his eyes, Split in two, if only she knew.

these big city lights are going to miss you, ox.

2008-11-01T08:39:00.000-07:00

These days you dont even say my name,
Like you dont really feel the same,
Im wondering whats to blame.

These nights i fall asleep wondering where you are,
It feels like we're falling apart,
And its only breaking my heart.

Because if being with you means being alone,
And never knowing when your coming home,
I guess im better off on my own.

But i cant move on,
Because that makes forgetting, forgetting everything we had,
Instead i keep coming, i keep running back.

take me back a couple of months?

2008-10-29T08:47:00.000-07:00

stop looking at the big picture, and start looking for detail.

you really do not no shit.

do you?

nah.

theres a huge difference between getting over a situation,

and getting through a situation.

where'd you go?
i miss you so,
seems like its been forever that you've been gone.

is it true everyone turns out the person they swore they never would be?

you did.

you promised..

"lauren, he will get better soon."

"its not your fault"

"..hes done it again"

"its not your fault"

"lauren, he loves you, but he needs help."

"its not your fault"

"..hes got worse"

"but its not your fault"

"lauren.."

let me guess, its not my fault?

i wish it was as easy as that.

my heart will stop before your breath, ox.

2008-10-25T23:42:00.000-07:00

shes got green eyes,

and shes 5"5,

long brown hair all down her back.

catalack truck,

so the hell what. ~~what so special about that?~~

she used to model,

shes done some acting,

so she weighs a buck o' 5.

and i guess that shes alright,

if perfections what you like.

when it was me..

these big city lights are going to miss you, ox.

2008-10-25T05:32:00.000-07:00

ransom notes keep falling out your mouthmid-sweet talk,
newspaper word cut outs
speak no feeling no?
I don't believe you.

where are we?
what the hell is going on?
spin me round again and rub my eyes,
this can't be happening.
when busy streets amass with people
would stop to hold their heads heavy.

hide and seek
trains and sewing machines
oh, you won't catch me around here
blood and tears?
~~hearts~~ they were here first.

these big city lights are going to miss you, ox.

2008-10-19T09:20:00.000-07:00

now your gone,
i realize my love for you was strong
and i miss you here now your gone.
i keep waiting here by the phone
~~with your pictures hanging on the wall~~
is this the way its ment to be?
only dreaming that your missing me.
im waiting here at home
im crazy now your gone.

i still love you.

2008-10-10T08:39:00.000-07:00

i wasnt jelous before we met,

now every girl i see is a potential threat.

and im possesive it isnt nice,

you've heard me saying that drinking is my only vice.
but now it isnt true,

now everything is new.

and what ive learned,
has overturned.

i beg of you.

dont go wasting your emotions
lay all your love on me.

me. me. me. me. me. me. me. me. me. me. me. me. me. me. me. me. me. me. me. me. me. me.

~~here we go again.~~

these big city lights are going to miss you, ox.

2008-10-05T07:09:00.000-07:00

god, i want to dream again,
take me where i've never been.
i want to go there,
this time im not scared.
now that im unbreakable,
its unmistakeable.
no one can touch me,
nothing can stop me.

♥

need to get over myself,
~~not~~ everything is about me.

these big city lights are going to miss you, ox

2008-10-04T04:22:00.000-07:00

i'll be your angel

(8)

2008-10-03T07:39:00.000-07:00

im not the one that you want,

i'll ~~only~~ let you down,

and im pretty sure that you've caught on,

and you can say it all,

im just feeling sorry for myself.

♥

how long could you hang on to a word?

tell me.

♥

im not the one that you want,
i'll ~~only~~ let you down,
and im pretty sure that you've caught on,
and you can say it all,
im just feeling sorry for myself.

2008-09-30T22:40:00.000-07:00

you let go of my rope,
now im standing on the ground,
i try to talk to you,
but from you i hear no sound,
you tell me that you love me,
then you go and shut me down,
i tell you that im sorry,
didnt think you'd turn around and say,
its too late to apologize.
♥

these big city lights..

2008-09-30T09:14:00.000-07:00

when we were only kids
and we were best of friends
and we hoped for the best
and let go of the rest
the shadows and regrets
we let go of the rest.

everything has changed
the faces stay the same
everything has changed.
the faces stay the ~~same.~~

i dont hate you, i love you.
and i miss what it used to be like.

with you.

and you.

especially you.

and even you.

yr9, no regrets.

big city lights maybe its over, ox.

2008-09-28T09:08:00.000-07:00

im holding on your rope,
got me ten feet of the ground.
and im hearing what you say,
but i just can't make a sound.
you tell me that you need me,
then you go and cut me down.
tell me that your sorry,
didnt think i'd turn around and say
its too late to apologize.

these big city lights are going to miss you, ox.

2008-09-24T07:41:00.000-07:00

Do you ever think when you're all alone,
All that we can be, where this thing can go?
Am I crazy or falling in love?
Is it real or just another crush?

Yet another pointless post, but you will get the message soon.

these big city lights are going to miss you, ox.

2008-09-22T05:41:00.000-07:00

Tag your IT.

Tag Rules:
1. The rules of the game get posted at the beginning.
2. Each player answers the questions about themselves.
3. At the end of the post the player then tags 5 people and posts their names, then goes to their blogs and leaves a comment, letting them know they got tagged and to ask them to play and read your blog.

Time: 20.42
Name: Loziiii
Sisters: None
Brothers: None
Shoe size: 6
Height: 5"8
Where do you live: Malaysia
Favourite drinks: Pepsi
Favourite breakfast: Pancakesss
Have you ever ;
Been on a plane: Yes
Swam in the ocean: Yes
Fallen asleep in school: Yes
Broken someone's heart: Probably not.
Fell off your chair: Many times
Sat by the phone all night waiting for someone to call: Yes
Saved e-mails: I dont even read emails :)
Chicken pox: Yes
Sore throat: Yes
Stitches: No
Broken nose: No
What is your room like: Pink
What's right beside you: Richard III, yeah boy.
What is the last thing you ate: Chips
Do you ;believe in love at first sight: Meh, whatever.
Last made you smile: Earlier.
You last yelled at: Mummy
Today did you:
Talk to someone you like: My friends?
Kissed anyone: No.
Get sick: No
Talked to an ex: No.
Miss someone: Always.
Best feeling in the world: Fun.
Do you sleep with stuffed animals: Aahaha
What's under your bed: Nothing, im well tidy.
What time is it now: 20.48pm
Random Qs:
Q: Is there a person who is on your mind right now: No
Q: Do you have any siblings: No
Q: Do you want children: I guess
Q: Do you smile often: Yes.
Q: Do you like your hand-writing: Its sick.
Q: Are your toenails painted: Yes
Q: Whose bed other than yours would you rather sleep in: Basshunters.
Q: What colour shirt are you wearing: What if im not wearing a top?
Q: What were you doing at 7.00pm yesterday: Maybe sleeping
Q: I can't wait till: The weekend.
Q: When did you cry last: When i yawned this morning
Q: Are you a friendly person: I hope so.
Q: Do you have any pets: 2 doggies.
Q: Where is the person you have feelings for right now? shhh.
Q: Did the last person you held hands with mean anything to you now? He did, a long time ago.
Q: Do you sleep with the TV on?: No.
Q: What are you doing right now? What do you think!?
Q: Have you ever crawled through a window? Aahahahahhahaaha
Q: Can you handle the truth? No.
Q: Are you closer to your mother or father? No comment
Q: Who was the last person you cried in front of? My daddy..
Q: How many people can you say you've really loved? Like love love or family love :)?
Q: Do you eat healthy? Is mcds healthy? No then.
Q: Have you ever cried because of something someone said to you? Yes.
Q: How often do you go to church? Ermm, let me see. Never.
Q: If you're having a bad day, who are you most likely to go to? Hattie or Stefan.
Q: Are you loud or quiet most of the time? Haha LOUD.
Q: Are you confident? Not particularly.
Q: 5 things I was doing 10 years ago: Err running naked, laughing, crying, smiling, loving :).
Q: 5 snacks I enjoy: Ice cream! Watermelon. Pineapple. Hola Hoops! Yogurt.
Q: 5 things I would do if I were a billionaire: Buy a HUGE house for my fam init. Buy a private plane. Save the money for when im older yo.
Q: 5 of my bad habits: Im the laziest thing ever. I care to much about what people think. I sing all the time (its awful). I laugh way to much, actually thats not bad.
Q: 5 places I have lived in: Londonn, Buckinghamshire, KL, Holland (Y).
Q: 5 jobs I've had: Sitting on my ass? :)
Tag 5 people : No thankyou :D.

2008-09-22T04:04:00.000-07:00

i miss the sound of your voice
the loudest thing in my head
and i ache to remember
all the violent, sweet, perfect words that you said.

i miss the pull of your heart

i taste the sparks on your tongue

and i see angels, devils and even god

when you come on.

i'll be there for you

when the sky falls down

i'll be there for you

when no one else is around.

life wont go your way?

and you never know what to say

when you have nothing left

i still love you.

these big city lights are going to miss you, ox.

2008-09-20T19:39:00.000-07:00

"when you leave my colours fade to grey.."

i miss and love you so so much.

forget the last 2 posts, i really need to get over myself.

these big city lights are going to miss you, ox.

2008-09-11T04:02:00.000-07:00

Pretty green eyes,
So full of sparkle and such light,
Let me remind,
You chose not to cry,
Its alright,
For your lover has come,
By your side i'll always stay,
Never ever be alone.

Pretty green eyes,
So full of wonder and despair,
Its alright to cry,
For i'll be there to wipe your tears,
And in your arms,
Together we're in paradise,
Its so nice,
You'll never have to be alone.

like i said, no ones singing to me...

these big city lights are going to miss you, ox.

2008-09-10T06:31:00.000-07:00

But if i still believe you love me
~~Maybe~~ I’ll survive
So i tell myself you’re coming back
Like you’ve done a million times
And if it’s alright
I’ll still be loving you
’cause I can’t break it to my heart.

these big city lights...

2008-09-09T06:25:00.000-07:00

You light up another cigarette

and pour the wine

It's 4 O'clock in the morning

and it's starting to get light

Now i'm right where i wanna be

losing track of time, but i wish that it was still lastnight.

You look like your in another world

but i can read your mind

How can you be so far away lying by my side

when i go away i'll miss you

though i'll be thinking of you everynight.

these big city lights are fading, ox.

2008-09-07T08:25:00.000-07:00

xoxo

2008-09-07T05:41:00.000-07:00

im so sick of love songs,
so sad and slow,
so why cant i turn of the radio?

these big city lights are going to miss you, ox.

2008-08-31T06:30:00.000-07:00

* & ♥ % $ # @!

im walking on sunshine, :D.

these big city lights are going to miss you, ox.

2008-08-27T04:59:00.000-07:00

Memories are forever,
never do they die.
Friends stay together,
and never say goodbye.

i want to go home, ox.

2008-08-26T09:04:00.000-07:00

music gives us
an escape from our drama filled,
teenage heart driven lifes.
a chance to actually be part of
something amazing.
it gives us something to believe in..

these big city lights are going to miss you, ox.

2008-08-22T08:12:00.000-07:00

LOZ.

you twat.

2008-08-22T07:14:00.000-07:00

She goes about her day to day and does her duties to perfection,
She cries alone and works her way through fears and self rejection.

No one knows this angel is carrying around such grief,

If they only saw a glimpse of things they'd sigh in disbelief.

She seems to be so perfect not one single flaw,

Everyone looks at her with envy If they only knew it all.

Her heart aches with loneliness and her tears disguised with pride,

Why does she care what they think its becoming too much for her to hide.

She comes home to a man that doesn't really care,

He never hears a word she says he looks right through her as if she’s not really there.

She is running out of friends to confide in and family's gone astray,

Alone and broken hearted, she slits her wrists and

slowly but carefully, fades away.

these big city lights are going to miss you, ox.

2008-08-14T05:26:00.000-07:00

Are you picturing me lying across your bed?

Are you thinking you were wrong to hurt me?

I forgive you, I'll forget everything you said,

You will love, and you will not desert me.

these big city lights are going to miss you,ox.

2008-08-13T09:09:00.000-07:00

Romance has gone, he's drifting with the stars
A lyric in his pocket, little girl in his heart
When you hear his songs on the radio
I don't need to tell you what you already know
He's on God's Top Ten where Heaven never ends.

You saw the world and the world saw you on the stage

Wild wild wild colonial boy

Roquefort le pont, your gypsy heart is free

Pictures on the wall of your family

He's on God's Top Ten where Heaven never ends.

Baby's got momma's eyes, she was always beautiful
When you hear his voice, feel his arms around you
You remember momma smiling, a daddy's little girl
Bad weather, cold media storm
He's on Gods Top Ten where Heaven never ends.

these big city lights are going to miss you, ox.

2008-08-12T05:01:00.000-07:00

love me?

hate me?

that is the question.

these big city lights are going to miss you, ox.